Feb the Feb the Feb so far

So, February has been a very, I don't know how to put it, dramatic and big month so far. We're two weeks in, it's currently Valentine's Day as I say this message in Vilnius, snowing, beautiful. And yeah, what's happened so far, I've been to a BBC event, World Questions, at the start of the month. Had some wine, got drunk quickly, shouldn't have happened but it's okay. Worked pretty well, work has been going well, apart from a slew of crazy incidents going on. The whole team's falling apart, lots of bitching going on. Basically just crazy behavior. Lots of articles have been deleted without the journalist's consent. There's a toxic couple of personalities going on in the office and it's just not really the best situation. All I want to do is see out the next week and complete my probation, I really hope it happens. No guarantees ever, you know, but I think it's okay. Surely someone would have said something that you don't know in this kind of company. So, just take it each day as it comes. And then finally, they dropped the bomb today that we're moving offices back to the old one. So whatever, I'm just going to do the needful, that's the essence of it. Love life going really well, that's a really beautiful thing, really happy about that. Being around her and having that in my life. I do keep telling myself that it's not that I just let it seep in because I'm a person who can self-destruct, right? I don't want that self-destruction at all. Finally, I closed my gambling account, I was completely hooked on it. Fucking every day trying to get dopamine hits, there must be something wrong with that, with my dopamine quota or just the way I am. I can't regulate myself, I was using it at work. I'm scared that they might track that still, but I've deleted the history, closed down my account. And immediately when I did that in the middle of a lesson online, I felt brilliant. Touching in, catching up, fuck it. Friday afternoon, got to write an article, got something glorious. Valentine's piece on rebounding with an AI chatbot to go up. But I'm going to do something about cyber security and just finish the working week. Do the tasks, collect the money and shut the fuck up again. So, doing this into chat GPT just to say, copy and paste the launchpad.